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it has been a long time.

dunno what im busy with also. maybe just lazy as always.

so... many many things happened in the past few wks.

i rmb the dentist visit on a particular tuesday. haha. the dentist i supposedly went to see him seven yrs ago. and i thought he was a she! the dentist who was really nice to me cos i was really scared. haha and the dentist who told me how great mr sng was! im surprised that he even knew that dhs is at ghim moh!

hm yup than i dunno if its cos of the weather or any other reasons... ive been having bad headaches recently. and its irritating cos i seldom get headaches. and with headaches... everything jus aint gg well.

after the wk of the whole sch to ourselves... its back to sch with manymany ppl. really miss the feeling of the last week in sch.

anw, the long holiday!
saturday:
went out with zy, amelia and selina, to celebrate zy's bday at nydc at heeren. it was a hot hot day. and! nydc is outdoors. hmph.

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yup actually throughout the whole mrt trip and the meal. it was just weird lah. really dunno what happened though i really wished to know.

you know. i was thinking. if we behave in a certain way for long enough... even if its not too normal. it wld become a norm. which maybe isnt the best thing afterall. and i was staring at the piece of note on my table... about one's freedom and effect on others. i think i wrote it few yrs ago after a cme lesson. haha. um i think it sort of applies here perfectly.

w the freedom to do anything and act in anyway why wld we choose to make ppl around us worried or unhappy? doesnt it make more sense to make ppl around us happy. and everyone can just smilesmilesmile and be happy!

maybe its jus too perfect so we usually think abt ourselves first?

sometimes when i say "im okay" i dun even know if im really okay... so when ppl tell me they're okay. i wonder if they are really okay too...

just wished that everything wld get back to the situation like before soon... not sure if its possible though. but its difficult to solve i guess, since i dun even know what the problem is and why it suddenly appeared. i hope to find out soon...

it's like just one fine day. i decide that i shall be like tt for the next.... dunno how many days.

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anyway, after eating we went walking around. and after a few hrs we finally got really nice presents. i think it wld be one of the most meaningful presents i have ever given anyone. i think. yup. cos i think they are unique and thoughtful. :)

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sunday:
seriously. if you just leave me alone at plaza sing or somewhere tt area. i confirm i will get lost. wah its just complicated lah. or im just directionless. haha after all the escalator rides to the many levels ps there's still no where i wanted to have lunch in. finally. went over to the cathay.. and had lunch at nihon mura. the salmon mentai is.. woosh. damn good.

it's me. lazy and alwaysalways saying "no" to manymany things. even though i may have all the choices. haha...

yup so after lunch went back to ps for ironman. saw this bookshop at the cathay. quite like it. haha. chinese bkshop feeling. the cinema in ps has no air! stuffy stuffy feeling. but the show is funny. quite nice haha :)

monday:
went to temple in the early morning. said hello to the crowd! and the sun! yup so did all the usual stuff we do for vesak day. and went back to tm to watch accuracy of death!

wah i like it! alot :) not sure why. but i just like it alot!! yupppppp. i like it!

haha than lunched at fish and co. hmm. the swordfish is really scary. never attempt to finish it alone. its impossible man. but i think its very nice.

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today:
went ghim moh for lunch. :) love for tuesdays long lunch.

morning flag raising was. i was not prepared. i ren... for very long. and mr sng went on and on about the stories. and the students shared. and tts it. i cldnt control anymore. i felt like crying so much. i felt like gg home to hug my bolster to sleep. i cried. and it was so messy and i had to dig for tissue paper in my bag in the parade sq. taking deep breaths works. yup. glad tt nothing much happened.

life's vulnerable...

but love is everywhere. i think it's really touching to see so many ppl donating, helping out, without any motives or any wish of anything in return.

yup.

i think its a really incoherent post. hm. yup

hope headaches go away and i can think more clearly and yup everything back to norm.

And here the story ends...

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